As I wrote at the beginning of the year, one of my resolutions was to write more, viz., posting about Crime & Punishment on this blog.
Well I did finish the book, and enjoyed it considerably. I hope to say more later on the book. But overall I’d have to say I’m in a rut. I’ve always considered myself a reader and a writer, but I don’t honestly read that much anymore and I write even less.
The main reason I got through Crime & Punishment was some extended reading time on a long bus ride and a rare business trip. And even then it took eight months to finish.
One factor that has changed in my life is I no longer read books during the day. Whatever daytime reading I do is online. My “deep reading” or “close reading” is confined to the half-hour or so in bed before I fall asleep. That just ain’t gettin the job done.

NURSE: Jesu, what haste! Can you not stay awhile?
And my writing habits – nonexistent. I can’t even send old friends a birthday greeting or a How-ya-doin’? email.
The frustrating part is, I feel a desire to read. There’s so much out there I don’t even fricking know! Listening to Team of Rivals, I realized I had no idea who Lincoln ran against in the 1860 Republican primary or how he beat them. I didn’t even expect the book to explain that.
It’s mainly fiction that keeps drawing me in. I look for a certain mystery in fiction. That feeling of “I don’t completely understand everything, and I want to go back and try again.” In Crime & Punishment, for instance, there is a connection between Raskolnikov and Svidrigailov, as there is between Sonia and Dounia, and for that matter between Sonia and the pawnbroker’s daughter. I would like to re-examine those relationships, now that I know to look for them.
Then there are the dreams: Svidrigailov’s dream the night before his suicide; Raskolnikov’s dream of a man beating a horse.
I’d like to study all these things. Maybe even re-read The Idiot.
If I only had the time.